If Only Webcams were Teleport Pads.
Irrational, but I always go online in Yahoo Messenger even if sleeping. It is definitely wasting for electricity, and cross my fingers that my Dad can still afford our bills. But Sunday midnight, it happened. I was about to display my status as ’sleeping’, when my ditse in New Jersey buzzed me, wanting to have a little conversation in the wee hours of nighttime. I scolded her.
May pasok ako bukas, matutulog na ko!
Nandito si Mommy, gusto kang makita. Mag-webcam ka nga.
Ayoko! Matutulog na ko!
Yeah, I’m bad.
Minutes of persuasion have passed, and I got my webcam from the cabinet and plugged it in the laptop. I am irritated with my ditse since she still have the nerve to pester me in the wee hours of the night. Hell yeah, it is my fault. Why did I go online if I am sleepy?
So I’ve seen the nest-like reddish hair (dunno why my Mom would insist to dye her hair) of my Mom through the webcam. She – a mother who wanted to look young even if their faces are tattered with wrinkles. Back at Grade two (the title speaks for my Mom’s stay in U.S., and that explains why I only remember her from 2nd Grade and nothing more), she made the two of us late in the awarding ceremonies (I am still an honor student back then) just because she’s too busy fixing her face!
She’s 53 yet, honestly, she looks like a forty-year old Mom. But she’s a total idiot in computers that she actually thought it was impossible for me to send an e-mail. Ha-ha.
I also remember the last dish she prepared for me before she left Philippines for New York. It was beefsteak and it lasted three days in the dining table since I never wanted to eat her last dish. I also remember her shouting at me because I plugged the Playstation at the wrong place (I forgot to put the transformer, sorry. 3rd Grade doesn’t have Electronics yet). Result? A minor explosion with an oozing sound and spewing whatever. I cried so hard because that Playstation was so expensive (back then)!
My irritation disappeared while staring at my Mom over the webcam. All this time, I thought I don’t miss her. I thought that I have learned the way to live life without her, yet the webcam proved me wrong. Deep inside, my longing heart misses her vanity. My taste buds salivate for her dishes (though I prefer more of my ditse’s dishes since she’s a BS Nutrition graduate). And of course, I am looking forward to hug her.
If only webcams have this psychokinetic connection with each other; I would put my hands inside the webcam and hug her at the other side…
i know, how u feel ..nyaahaha..
grabe dapat tlga gumawa na sila ng machines for
teleportation..
hehe i know how it feels na ung parents malayo.. nyahehe! nakakamiss nag, WALANG SUMISIGAW SAYO. walang “RATATATATAT” tuwing umaga.. LOL~
rehas tayo iniiwanan ang comp sa gabi… di naman daw gaano kamahal sa kuryente un eh, kaya ok lang (haha bad influence tktsk) … haha..
pasalamat tayo at may YM, internet at email
wag matigas ulo.. gusto ka lang makita ng nanay mo. 
hehehehe. time is gold, not silver .. (siguro kun gold un lahat tayo mayaman) .. ayun dinadaan sa tawa pero wag mo palagpasin un.. 
miss ka lang nun! ayiihee~ hehe ingat na.
dislecix!! XD XD XD sino na ang dyslexic sa atin, ha?
behind the bars lies greatness. imagine life without the means of communication we are indulging at right now. imagine life without electronic mailing system, webcams, and the internet for that matter. perhaps, everything was unexpected. who would have thought that the internet would serve as a means of communication all throughout the world?
one thing i don’t like about you is when you sets yourself to be idle on yahoo messenger. you have been like that for quite sometime. and then i’d see your status to be idle for 2 hours. imagine the electricity you are wasting, kevin. consider the money you are wasting everytime your laptop has no user. if i were your dad, i’d chide you for that!
those pesky lines are inferrable, especially when it comes from somebody like you. i can feel your longing; you miss your mom so much. how i wish i could feel the same way, too. no–we feel the same way. i also miss my mother. but then i do not know where the heck my mother is right now. the last time i saw her is when i was to graduate elementary with the gold medal. after that, she never appeared again.
i have shared my misery to many people already. but, i think, not everyone clearly understand my deep emotions that strike me everytime i hear a child yearning for a mother. i, myself, yearn for a mother. how i wish i can have a telepathic mind. how i wish i can teleport. how i wish i can be knowledgable to know the location of my mother. i’m no longer mad at her. i have to admit that i despised her because of what she have done in my life–she ruined it!
and my siblings? i have three younger sisters (me being the first child) and right now they are living with my father. poor family they have there. it’s nice that i am not living with them. but then i miss them. i don’t want to reside on my father’s house because there lives also the second family of my father. they put themselves into a small shack by the road, two small room they have. i pity them. i can’t imagine living on that kind of family. i can say that i am very blessed. my grandmother is taking care of me, and my aunt supports my financial need. it’s like living for a good cost. and that good cost i presume to be something to be proud of. when the time comes that my parents would return here, i want them to see my achievement without looking back at those miserable and melodramatic parts of my life.
i love them. and i long for them. but they are not here beside me.
i am all alone. i don’t know the feeling of being a brother or a sibling. i can’t see the importance of the warmth of one’s parents’ embrace. but then again i know that i miss them. if only they have fixed their lives earlier.
please appreciate your family. especially your mother who is of the other side of the globe. and please refrain from wasting electricity.
i have never been away with my mom for too long. But, thinking about what you just said… i would surely miss her rants. nyahaha.
i think the japs are finding ways to invent that kind of machine. haha.
haaaay…kakalungkot naman…well buti n lng kahit papaano ay may web cam parin…atleast nakita mo parin mom mo but i bet mas lalo mo xa namiss…haaaay….
di ako maka-relate. no comment, moses. kiss na lang kita sa pisnge…muwah…
you could hug the monitor or your webcam!
right billycoy! you can hug your monitor or your webcam, kevin! haha.
Nangyari din sa TV namin yun nung summer nung mga grade 3 ako!
TV ha. TV. First day of summer vacation ko pa nun dati. And nag-decide dati si Dad na wag paayos para hindi sayang sa kuryente. BUONG SUMMER WALA KAMING TV. :\ Hahaha.
Buti na lang may habit ka na bukas ang YM kapag gabi, at least nakita mo yung Mom mo dahil dun. Kahit sa webcam lang.
mama ko di umaalis… sana umalis naman siya para ma miss ko siya at malove ko pa siya… mas mahal ko kasi papa ko keysa sa mama ko…
di ko alam na may boy loves mama side ka pala… ho-ho!
tagal kong di kapag koment sayo ha!
nakakatouch naman ang post mo. waw.
haha, tsina naman. di naman ako sadista o satanista na walang kinikilalang magulang. wahehe.
topak si billy at dj!
sefree, nice long comment. really, substantial sya! nako, baka mas mahaba pa yan kaysa sa post ko ha. wahehehe.
rina ko!!
redg, oops. yung playstation yung nasira. hindi yung tv.
-_- nako, baka mali ako. let me see..
hey, man!
let’s see. due to advance technology, we now have greater chances to communicate with our loved ones. but hell, it’s only technology. it cannot replace someone else’s presence.
and me? i’m still longing for my father. i long admitted it.
aww.. u never know what you got until its gone.. ahhahha. walang kwenta.. pero aus lang.. kse somehow, mahal mo talaga ang iyong mommy at ang iyong ditse.. hehhe
tama, yna. technology can’t afford the REAL thing.
hey dude… I know what your going through man… but ayus na yan…
arte mo… peste ka I bet your the one who nominated me for drama king shit w/e… lol pero okay lang … sa totoo lang mas drama king ka kesa sa akin…
and yea when i was young ganyan den ako pero di naman sa point na iyaka ako ng iyak tulad mo hahahahha… buti na lang ako noon ay ilaw lang nasaksak ko at sumabog at di aking PS… nyahehehehe…
cge tol ingat… see you in a couple of months
at least nakikita mo yung taong mahal mo. kesa naman yung walang wala talaga
Awwww. The last line was just…. awwwwww. Haha!
Naputok ko rin yung PlayStation ko nuon! Pero after a few weeks of not using it, (because I THOUGHT its broken) gumana na ulit siya. Haha! Ang galing nga e! Wala lang.
Well, at least malapit ka ng pumunta ng New York di ba? You’ll get to hug her na.. Konting tiis, my friend.
Jhed, miss u! Haha. Oo nga, konting tiis na laaaaaaang.
Mara, yeah. At least…
Yeah, Ron! KITA-KITS!!!
Haaay naku. Yeah. it’s that way when you miss someone.
and btw: stupid poetry.
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