Let Me Speak.
Not feeling well.
I need to do all those projects tomorrow. Yes, cramming and pressuring myself became the very tool for success.
I just attended a workshop seminar by the Parish Priest in Bocaue. Do I need to expound my lack of faith towards God and my religion? No. It will create too much controversy, so I’ll just keep it to myself. Right now, I’m neutral in my religion. I’m undecided, and I’m hunting for my lost soul.
We just opened our third eyes in the ruins of the old campus of St. Paul Bocaue.
And I blame myself for not seeing any hint of underlying matter beneath the air or something.
Need to sleep. School’s coming tomorrow, and I don’t care about comments today. I’m in a bad mood: degrading myself, and somehow noticing that my world is owned by others. Well, being good is great. Then I remember one of my mottos: life is not about doing good but it’s about being real. I am that person who wanted to be good (not a good boy) in terms of being a son, a student and so on.
I became a prisoner of others. I became their slave, who would follow the words they dictate. I just hate it.
You know, when you meet someone who had greater achievements than you – you would just tell yourself that you don’t deserve a fucking body and a space in this world so you’d better be wiped away from here. I find it hard to accept the fact that millions of people were far better than me. But does that mean I don’t have the cards to use? Does that mean that I’m hundred percent sure to lose?
Gotta hit the sack before this shit takes over me.
well, I can relate to what you are feeling right now. I’ve just attended mass, it seems to me that religion is not much significant anymore. I even thought of changing religions.
weel, I also felt the same way about knowing people that are better than me. I really thought that I was inferior to them, yet, I also have my own cards that I can deal with. I belong to the so-called “star section” in my batch and I really hate the fact that there are people better than me.
visit my blog when you get the chance.
get a grip. you will soon find relief in all this suffering.
I used to doubt about my religion. I guess it’s because of the school that i’m in right now. Methodist kasi yung school ko plus a lot of non-catholic religious groups. It really sucks cause they’ll make you feel that catholicism is no different than their religion when in fact there is a major difference.
*no offense to those non-catholics, im only refering to my schoolmates and classmates.*
Anyway, I started to regain my trust in my religion when I met this guy teentalker (candymag) who happens to know a lot about catholicism. I asked him every question that I have in my mind and right now, I perfectly understand everything.
“I am that person who wanted to be good (not a good boy) in terms of being a son, a student and so on.”
^^awww… I can totally relate. I feel so stupid everytime I encounter someone better than me in terms of academics. well, I guess I have to be a total geek this coming sem. :p
Life is showing the world who you are. Your choices should reflect… who YOU are.. not what other people say about you.
andyan nanaman tayo sa iyong religion crisis… whahaha ayus lang yan…….
haaaaay la ako masabi… masyado ka malalim mag isip for your age
chill ka lang kevin. hehehe. matulog ka ..
) mag rest ka wag mag stress lalabas ang wrinkles!!:D dumaan lang! nice theme btw!:)
naku, chillax kevinoids.
=)
try not to worry too much on the universe conspiring against u.
Inferiority complex? Insecurity?
As for me, I just take it as a cog to wheel me further-to make myself much better/ I, too, feel like people look at me to be the best but I feel I am the worst. I go for the latter, and never care. But I try to improve myself, whatever improvement I should adhere on.
Hmm, bout your religion, (lumulutang ka rin sa ere gaya ko) you just search for it. Just follow where your heart wants. It’s up to you where you want to allot credits to your HP or your MP. I hope you get my point, dude.
Good luck sa projects. Mabuhay ka.
you sure are very stressed right now.
whatever you’re thinking, better think again. people may be better than you, but hey, who can tell who’s the best? cmon. whoever the hell judges who’s better than the other and who’s not?
religion? too much to talk about. better leave it.
you need some rest…
let me be like an ate, okay?
I know that feeling. But dude. There’s more to life than schoolwork.
But get well. Drink lots of fluid and rest. Sige, ingat.
ayayay…rest…breathe!!:) mas mahirap pa sa college..kaya yan..tc!
oh gahd, i’m feeling the same right now. see, someone’s better than me pala. i forgot. =)
i’m surprised that you’re busy knowing that it’s sem break and almost all of us are in a beginning. and you have to work? why don’t you have your own break. =)
ps. with this new layout (i haven’t passed lately), i smell new domain name. hehe =)
pss. im back wit’ my fotoblog. hehe =)
yeepee! ngayon na lang ako ulit nadaan sa blog mo kasi naman kupad ng internet ko kaya di gaano nakakapagbloghop.. sila na lang pumupunta sakin.. ui.. hehehe..
well taken from ur post ‘life is not about doing good but it’s about being real.’ agree ako sayo, kasi what if ur doing good for the sake na makakuha ng popularity or kung ano pa man, but being real takes it all.. kung natural sayo yun mas magaan sa pakiramdam.. and anyway, kahit na marami kang gingawa sa school, the only thing u need to remember is to enjoy every works na ginagawa mo para di masyadong stress.. just be cool.. :p
ahhhh! the art of cramming!
i’ve been doing it for the last 8 years!
not all the great people on earth started good. there are losers who became winners. dont look on the achievements of others, look on your own.
always live positively, life is full of wonders.
nice words, BILLYCOY. in fairness – you’ve given me one great advice!!
yes, people. I am maybe stressed, and demoralizing myself. Sheesh.
Sige, i need to do my projects pa. Amp.
yer right. i’m feeling the same. but hey, don’t put yourself down. each of us has a different story.
It’s not bad to cram.At least you’re practicing a skill. AGILITY!!!
Link ex?^_^
sure thing, Isaiah!
hui.. link ex naman jan.. plz?? hehhe..
anyhoo.. anag complicated kapag matters ng relihiyon ang pinaguusapan.. ung bang simpleng bagay nggng complicated.. ako, catholic p dn. ok ako sa faith ko.. hnd extreme hnd sobrang baba.. ewan
i guess most of us are cramming right now, and yes including me. sembreak sucks. it doesn’t even have the right to be named a “break” as a matter of fact. but oh well, now is here and i guess we just have to make the most out of it.
goodluck keviiiin XD
hmm, sometimes, i too have doubts about our faith that at times i become neutral too.. but there will also be time when this opportunity would open my eyes to the reality of God.
missyoouuu. hahaXD tagal na di naguusap, eh?
I’m missing you so baaaaaad, Cars! Minsan, chat tayo ha. Isaiah – Sure thing. Potpot – sure thing also! Wait lang kayo kasi nakakatamad mag-update ng pages. Toinkz.
soul searching.. recedo!
“You know, when you meet someone who had greater achievements than you – you would just tell yourself that you don’t deserve a fucking body and a space in this world..” – i don’t, and i don’t think you do too.=) nasabi mo lang siguro yun dahil sa stress nga.
“Does that mean that I’m hundred percent sure to lose?” – you know the answer to this.
i feel that this post is very uncharacteristic of yours. ikaw, magpapaapekto sa iba? more specifically sa superiority ng iba? haha, this should be the last thing on your mind. sige, gumawa ka na lang ng project! ibuhos mo enerhiya mo dun! =D
Yes, Paghent. It’s totally different from my other posts kasi wala akong binura dito. Sulat lang ng sulat.
Kaya ‘let me speak’ yung title. I speak for myself, and nothing could stop me.
Hehe.
Deejay, anong recedo?
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